T-13 days. That's it. All I can think about it finishing. Finishing my book, finishing illustrations, finishing the 52 portrait project (which would require that I figure out how to operate my new camera, ugh!) Finishing all the things. I'm so hyper focused on productivity that I'm paralyzed. The fear monster is back. Instead of working, I procrastinate. When I do work, it's terrible...mostly because I'm so stressed about finishing. This morning, I sat down to draw and I just wasn't feeling it. For awhile now I've been drawing animals and people, drawing from reference photos, sketching and erasing. And this morning I thought I'm taking all this way too seriously!
My daughter was the inspiration for this project. She doesn't study reference photos. She doesn't check to see if squirrels are brown or gray or how many toes they have. She just draws, freely and quickly, for the fun of it.
So I put my pencil down and picked up my big fat pink pen. No erasing allowed. I drew slowly but without much thought. Today I will remember why I started in the first place, that this is my own made-up project. It's time to stop taking things so seriously and find the fun again.