hmm, where to begin....
So I missed three days of sharing on Instagram. And then I missed yesterday's Monday Mourning post. I'm still painting and drawing, I'm just having trouble with the sharing part lately. Then I noticed that though I was ready to share today, it was extra hard. Do I mention that I've missed three days? Do I explain myself? Do I move on? What do I say? There was a temptation to not say anything at all, or maybe not share again today. But I went forward with it anyway.
I painted yesterday's portrait at least three times and I just haven't gotten one that I want to accept yet. And I think that's where I am at with this whole thing. Something has changed in me about sharing and quality and process.
Yesterday I was thinking about it and I thought about this Ira Glass quote that I love:
“What nobody tells people who are beginners — and I really wish someone had told this to me . . . is that all of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is this gap. For the first couple years you make stuff, and it’s just not that good. It’s trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not.
But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer. And your taste is why your work disappoints you. A lot of people never get past this phase. They quit. Most people I know who do interesting, creative work went through years of this. We know our work doesn’t have this special thing that we want it to have. We all go through this. And if you are just starting out or you are still in this phase, you gotta know it’s normal and the most important thing you can do is do a lot of work. Put yourself on a deadline so that every week you will finish one story.
It is only by going through a volume of work that you will close that gap, and your work will be as good as your ambitions. And I took longer to figure out how to do this than anyone I’ve ever met. It’s gonna take awhile. It’s normal to take awhile. You’ve just gotta fight your way through.”
When I started out with year of creative habits, I made it a rule to share every day. I am so glad I did. Sharing was proof that I completed my daily work. Sharing helped me build the habit. Without the rule, I wouldn't have shared very often because everything I made sucked, and I knew it!
As I've gotten a bit better, my views on sharing have changed a little. Now I am in the habit of making. (I don't absolutely need the sharing part to keep me honest about creating every day.) Overall, I'm more consistent with what I make though I still make plenty of crap. I think I'm at a point where I want to be more selective about what I share. I don't want to share all the crap anymore.
However my little sharing break over the weekend has given me pause. I realized that even a simple share on Instagram takes guts. If I skip a few days, I lose my nerve. That's not a good thing. It was then that my husband said, "sharing everyday isn't the same as sharing everything." (He's so smart.) So I CAN do both. I can share everyday and I can also be more selective about what I share. It might take some creativity but that's what this all about.